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Never too late...

Had a long chat with my school friend few days back, must admit, skyping is fun and economical. We were musing about our school days, the fun we had, teasing the boys especially, playing pranks on fellow classmates and teachers, the dreadful Math, boring social studies so on and so forth.

Felt really nice to connect, though, after that I was surrounded by the horrible monster called 'guilt' for a while, as I realized rather recollected how I have hurt few people. There were promises that were not kept.

Decisions taken impulsively, not realizing how it would have affected someone. Actions that must have altered lives. In those growing up years, the adrenaline rush is at its peak I guess, so much that the brain stops functioning properly.

Life for everyone would have been easy, if there was a rewind button, alas! not there. I can't go back and erase the bad instances from the minds of the people I hurt then, though I desperately wish I could.

Today, as I write this stuff, I am also apologizing sincerely. And trust me people, there has been immense retribution. What goes around does come around! :)

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