Random nothings!

I was having my coffee in the morning as usual, when I saw the caption 'time flies'. That set me thinking. Checked the date, and couldn't believe that there were just 5 days left for 2012 to end. Phew!  Well, it's cliched, because every year, I say the same thing. I desperately wanted 2011, to end slowly, as the arrival of 2012 meant that I would have to leave Bangalore, but obviously, we do not have control over time. So 2012 came, I moved, and I am still settling in so to say, and now it's time to welcome another year. Thank God for surviving one more year. This is one prayer that I always say every year. New Year, new beginnings, so I guess I have to wait and watch what 2013 has in store for me. In the meanwhile, I will draw up my list of resolutions - that is a ritual, and I love to do it every year. I do not stick to the list, so this time, losing weight is definitely NOT there, though I still have to work on my water intake. I am worse than a camel when it com...

Pia walked in to their 3 bedroom apartment and was surprised to see Rohan. "You back early!", she said, as she kissed him. "Coffee?", she nodded and went into the bedroom to change, "this is the right opportunity to break the news", she thought. She took out the file from her bag, changed and went to the living room, where Rohan was waiting with two cups of coffee. She was smiling, and she said, "I have to tell you something". "Oh! I have to tell you something too, but you go first", said Rohan tucking her hair behind her ear lovingly. She came closer and whispered, "Roh, I am pregnant, you are going to be a father". Rohan hugged her, and while his arms were around her, he told her, "I am sorry Pia, I cannot father a child, my sperm count is less than low, but good luck to you and the father of this child". She suddenly felt dizzy. She heard him take out a suitcase and pack his stuff.

Tanvi stepped out of the shower, applied moisturiser liberally, it was the beginning of December, the weather was dry and chilly. She picked out a faded pair of Tommy Hilfiger jeans, a Vero Moda warm top, threw over a wrap to complete her look. She was an attractive 25 year old. As she opened her watch box, she was amazed at her collection, she picked up a Fossil to coordinate, as she wore it around, her thoughts wandered to her simple life in Pune. The journey from their till Delhi, was tough, filled with sacrifices rather compromises. She always craved for a fancy lifestyle as a kid, she got everything today, but, at a cost. Her eyes were moist, and she quickly dabbed away with a tissue. Applied mascara, took her car keys and waited for the lift. She hardly knew anyone on her floor, while she waited, she saw Naina walking with her daughter tucked in the pram. She was the only lady she recognised and spoke to. Naina looked at her, and then herself, for a new mother with a 3 month old ...

I a a very weird person. I am not gifted, don't consider myself to be special, not very talented. Though I am a happy go lucky kinda person, I also believe in living and accepting my emotions. If things hurt me, I get upset. I can't just immediately brush it off saying, "it's okay" and even if I do, I don't mean it. It has been like this for a very long time, I have tried, really hard but there is  part of me which doesn't let go easily, the wrongs stay in my head - subconscious mind forever. Yes, I forgive. I forgive people who hurt me, broke my trust, cheated me, lied to me. But, frankly, I do mope. I cannot bring myself to put everything behind and move on. While I do move on physically, but that stuff stays. It just stays, I do not harbor vengeance, I do not nurture intentions or spite of paying them back, but I get upset when I see them praising themselves without any conscience. I suffer from this problem, and it pains me to see such people making fu...

So, my laptop konked off. And took a long time to repair. I have a desktop, also the famous iPad, but the relationship that I have developed with my cute lil laptop over the years can't be put into words. It was easy for me to find a spot, and just write away or surf away. Had become very lazy to plonk myself in front of the desktop, though its in a perfect corner of a room filled with books. Anyway, am back with my lil laptop, banging on the keyboard happily ;). Recently I started watching Big Boss, a reality show where, they bring in celebrities - most of them in need of a image lift, and some of them jobless. All of them have to spend few weeks together in a house as per the show format and rules, they are not allowed to establish any kind of contact with the outside world. They need to cook and clean, and do other tasks as per the orders of that 'Big Boss' who's not seen, only heard. There are cameras all around the house, and the viewers get to watch the fun. There...

Sometimes when I look at my life, i wonder if this is how I thought it would be.... Checking detergent, putting out laundry, buying groceries.... But, when I turn around and take a moment to look at my journey so far, i thank God.