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Between then and now...

My last post was on 16th March 2015, and I haven't visited this space since then... Lot of things happened between then and now..

 March 25th 2015, we finally got the possession of the villa, we had been rooting for. The previous owner was a complete jerk, he put us through an ordeal. But as they say, when you really want something, the universe conspires to get it for you. I desired that house, which is now my beautiful home.

 Even before, we signed the papers, I had visualized the decor of this house...my house, my home! I was happy with my previous villa too, it was enough for the 4 of us, but, hey, dreams are not in your control, fulfilling them definitely is. My husband made it happen. He just went after the guy to get this for us. The whole of April and May was spent in doing up the house. The woodwork, the furniture, drapes etc... Everything had to be coordinated. Though am still not happy with the colour of the curtains.. Looking around to find the right one. Then came the garden space, we wanted to do a white picket fence a la Tom Sawyer. My childhood memories were revoked, nothing for my son, as he is not really into Tom Sawyer. I bought two of them, but he didn't show much interest. Anyway, so the garden layout was getting planned. Before it could be implemented, I first went for a school reunion to Delhi, then I came back and left for Chennai on 4th June, to attend my cousin's wedding. 

 24th June, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. My world came crashing down. The remaining interior work was put on hold. Who thought that a casual check up on 19th June, would lead to something as serious as cancer? I became the centre of attention literally. Everything now revolved around me. Endless tests, innumerable doctor visits, prognosis, decisions later, finally, the chemotherapy started on 20th July 2015. A chemo every 3 weeks. After 4 cycles, I was operated on 30th October. It was karvachauth, couple of my friends joked that it will be my husband this time praying for my long life :D. 

 6 weeks after the surgery, I had to go in for 4 more cycles of chemo, followed by 30 doses (6 weeks) of radiation. 

 I documented my entire cancer journey in a cancer journal. That is why I didn't find time to touch base with this space. The other night, I opened Random Nothings! on my phone, and I  realised that it had been over a year since I wrote something here. 

 So I am back!! This is the space where I connect with myself. Where I dont have the fear of being judged..Where I can just pour my heart...

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