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No Regrets - So I say...


While coming back home, a colleague asked me, “Is there something that you regret or you wanna go back and erase in your life?” I said, “No regrets, but, given an opportunity I would like to erase few things”
This question dominated my mind for a while, I asked myself, if I was to go back and erase few things, where would I start from?
There were too many things to erase, decisions that brought about a 360 degree change in my life. Needless, to say I was misty eyed, was a lil low for sometime, the minute I hit the bed, I burst into tears, I would have cried for about half an hour, and then felt better. Got up, freshened up, and then realized, what’s the point in thinking about stuff that cannot be changed? Why should I waste my present thinking about what could have happened, whatever had to happen has happened, now it can’t be changed, unless there is a miracle – chances of which are bleak.
There have been learnings, no doubt about that. The learnings came with a price, nevertheless, valuable lessons learnt. I would rather live my present than dwell on my past or plan for my future, because, whatever will be…will be!!!!
Location: Bengaluru, Karnataka, India

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